While most people think that depression is feeling blue and sadness, it’s rarely just that. There are several cycles in depression, anger, sadness, despair, and the worst part of depression numbness. The numbness is easily the worst part of depression, but people who have never experienced it might not see that, especially people who take their own feelings for granted. Emotions are amazing things, even the bad ones, when you are in a state of unfeeling.
Most people don’t realize how important their emotions are to them. People often take their feelings for granted and some would do away with them altogether just to avoid unpleasant feelings. What they don’t realize is that you need that release of emotions, whether it’s a good cry or a hearty laugh. You need your feelings in order to feel alive. This of course comes from personal experience.
When I was a teenager I learned first hand what it was like to lose the ability to feel. At first it intrigued me as it was like Data on Star Trek but, I had no idea how hard it would be. There are times when you want to cry and you can’t find that sweet release of tears. It was then when I knew that I should ask for help. For months in my own life it was just torture wanting to feel and not having the ability. Eventually the feeling come back to me but, it was the most frightening thing.
While people believe that depression is all sadness, it really isn’t, you feel a range of emotions or none at all. The worst part of depression is the not feeling any emotions at all. One of the things that you could learn from it is that you will never take your feelings for granted again. It was hard for me, the worst part of depression, not feeling anything. So remember that depression can be feeling nothing at all and that is the worst part of it.